I’m working on being consistent and honing in on my gifts and businesses, so forgive me for being delayed AGAIN with this post lol. I don’t think people understand what a single mom endures, there is literally never a dull moment. No, we’re not begging for spotlight or pity, but sheesh! In this season of my life I’m learning that it’s not my job to do all and be all to everyone. I’m learning to let my no be no PERIOD! I’m learning to give myself grace to grow. The hurt I’ve endured caused me to want to control everything because there’s no way I can endure those things again. But I’ve learned that healing is impossible unless we let go. Here’s why letting go is so difficult, the act of letting go for some of us feels like we’re relinquishing our power and leaving ourselves open for attacks during our vulnerability. It’s easy to talk, teach, and encourage others to let go and move forward, and in some capacities, I got it but this place right here right now is difficult. Yet again I hear the spirit of the Lord saying, “how bad do you want it?” How bad do we desire to live the life we were literally sent here to live? I wrestled with that question a little over 2 years and here it is again, for this new realm, this new level it’s as if I’m renewing my YES to the Lord. I think I had gotten to a place where many of you may find yourselves, pushing everything into God’s hands out of fear of making the wrong decisions. Ya know, not giving real answers, not making real decisions because fear had you hemmed up. Today, I decided that yes, I’ve made some unwise choices before, yes some unfortunate things have happened to me, yes I have been taken advantage of- BUT GOD! I’m not that same person, the word tells us we become a new creature in Christ and that the old is gone and the new is here. I’ve grown in ways I don’t even give myself credit for, I’ve done things that I didn’t know I could do, and this next chapter I must be brave and trust that the God that I serve has me and my babies (my son and my niece). In a recent interview, in one of my responses I said, “logic and faith are like oil and water, faith never makes logical sense.” The two NEVER mix, I didn’t even understand how I needed that! As soon as I think I’ve “figured it out”, here comes another opportunity to stretch beyond my limitations and current level. I had to ask myself, “are you willing to miss out on a blessing?” the answer is NO! All of this spiritual warfare and tears and praying and fighting and lessons, it’s ALL working for my good even if I don’t understand how this piece of my puzzle fits with that piece of the puzzle. I choose to move forward in faith. I’m graced for this and so are you. A puzzle box is real cute from the outside, gives you hope that you can really tackle the contents- but then you open it and immediately begin to question and second guess. Life is very similar, we must look at situations/ opportunities and decide, and almost immediately we start to hear doubt and questions but when we take a step anyway, when we move forward anyway, the reward is the result of a strong yes! What are you saying, “YES!” to? Today, evaluate what’s trying to hinder you from thriving in purpose. Write it down, look up scriptures on faith and build yourself up to let your yes be YES!
I’m standing with you and praying for you!